my soulchandra [irl experience pt II]

Before anything else, I would like to clarify that the girl in the picture is not my girlfriend. She is my best friend. Second, she has a boyfriend. So, don’t waste your time asking me her number and stuff. Lastly, don’t read this post if you haven’t read the first part of the story yet.

She suggested that I should follow what my heart says. She said that I could choose anything and she assured that she would always be two steps behind me. She then just pinched my face and said it again. Then we laughed until I decided to go home.

While walking out of the campus, I decided that I should walk my way home. Since our house is just nearby, I decided to this but along the way some computer shops were on sight. Temptations, they are temptations to me, because if I will play then I will be committed to it. I wasn’t to play yet since I still didn’t choose between it and my studies.

As I arrived from home, I derived something that is really very interesting. I derived a question from realizing every fact that is involved in both sides. That question is this: “what weighs more, happiness of others or happiness of self?”.

This question questioned my mind the first night I asked it to myself. Confused and sleepy, I asked it to my friends who are playing and most of them said that happiness of others is really important. They said such because they say that if we make someone happy then we also make ourselves happy.

The same question I asked to my best friend, and she answered to me that she will choose the happiness of self. She said this so, because she said that whatever you do, you can never make anyone happy when you are not happy.

I quitted the game actually while making this decision, but my grades wasn’t going up. The only grade that was going up was geometry and the others were not. I wasn’t taking any commitments or any serious things. I was just hoping that I could really make a decision fast.

So, one day, I went to class, and decided that I would…

[Think you know what is my decision? Hmmmm, let us see in part III]